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Dumb Brain Habits
Jan. 11th, 2026 06:59 pmI have become fixated on the idea of buying a DAP (digital audio player).
Do I need a digital audio player? No. I have a phone with plenty of space that can easily connect to my car and my Bluetooth headphones. I have wired headphones that can connect to my laptop. I have YouTube on multiple devices. I do not need a designated music player.
AND YET! My brain wants one so bad!!!!!
I would not use it! Not regularly! I am not an audiophile by any means. I download everything as an MP3 and listen to it through Bluetooth, and frankly, it all sounds fine to me that way. A DAP would sit off to the side, just like my DS (god, I need to use my DS more often).
The real problem is that I'm starting a new semester tomorrow. I will soon be inundated with academic articles and homework assignments. And instead of preparing for this incoming reality, my brain picks a bunch of new stuff to fixate on instead.
I've started re-watching Taskmaster. I'm typing my notes from last semester. I'm digitizing old family videos. I'm knitting my nephew's baby blanket. I'm researching digital audio players. But nothing that will actually help me in the next week or so.
It's not like I didn't know this would happen. It always does. Before last semester started, I made this account. And I had to stop myself from re-watching all of Digimon. In college, I started making plans to watch the entire Power Ranger's canon before realizing how insane that would be. (I still kind of want to do it. But not as much as I did in that moment.)
Is it the neurodivergence? The vaguely undefined mental illness? Or is it just the human instinct to avoid anything that makes us nervous? (Let's be honest. It's probably the last one.)
What was the point of this post? Nothing, really. Venting, I guess. Trying to get out some of that jittery energy before I do something stupid like buying a digital audio player. I'm a little broke this month, so I shouldn't be spending that much money anyway. Maybe in a month I'll come back to it and decide if I still want one. I probably won't.
Normally, when I'm jittery, I go for a walk. But it's dark and cold out and I have no interest in getting dressed up enough to counteract either of those facts. So I sit here, typing out nonsense, tapping my fingers on my leg.
Oh well.
Do I need a digital audio player? No. I have a phone with plenty of space that can easily connect to my car and my Bluetooth headphones. I have wired headphones that can connect to my laptop. I have YouTube on multiple devices. I do not need a designated music player.
AND YET! My brain wants one so bad!!!!!
I would not use it! Not regularly! I am not an audiophile by any means. I download everything as an MP3 and listen to it through Bluetooth, and frankly, it all sounds fine to me that way. A DAP would sit off to the side, just like my DS (god, I need to use my DS more often).
The real problem is that I'm starting a new semester tomorrow. I will soon be inundated with academic articles and homework assignments. And instead of preparing for this incoming reality, my brain picks a bunch of new stuff to fixate on instead.
I've started re-watching Taskmaster. I'm typing my notes from last semester. I'm digitizing old family videos. I'm knitting my nephew's baby blanket. I'm researching digital audio players. But nothing that will actually help me in the next week or so.
It's not like I didn't know this would happen. It always does. Before last semester started, I made this account. And I had to stop myself from re-watching all of Digimon. In college, I started making plans to watch the entire Power Ranger's canon before realizing how insane that would be. (I still kind of want to do it. But not as much as I did in that moment.)
Is it the neurodivergence? The vaguely undefined mental illness? Or is it just the human instinct to avoid anything that makes us nervous? (Let's be honest. It's probably the last one.)
What was the point of this post? Nothing, really. Venting, I guess. Trying to get out some of that jittery energy before I do something stupid like buying a digital audio player. I'm a little broke this month, so I shouldn't be spending that much money anyway. Maybe in a month I'll come back to it and decide if I still want one. I probably won't.
Normally, when I'm jittery, I go for a walk. But it's dark and cold out and I have no interest in getting dressed up enough to counteract either of those facts. So I sit here, typing out nonsense, tapping my fingers on my leg.
Oh well.
